Hold on.

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I wish I could say I want to go back to being the crazy, stupid , gullible girl that I was a year ago. But I can't. Life works that way. It happens to you when you least expect it. It can be everyone you loved just shoving you away like you never mattered. It can be yourself , just taking the road to destroying the old you to build a new person you hardly recognize. It can be your dad who was supposed to be there forever , who was once a part of your everyday now ceasing to become an email wishing you a happy birthday. It can be you crying yourself to sleep every night for six months because you are in a place where you have no one and its slowly driving you to insanity. It can be you relapsing, going back to everything you did to yourself three years ago. It can be anything. But you won't want to go back to being who you were. Because you survived through all that dark and maybe just maybe lived just enough to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. That's life showing you , you've still got time left. Thank everything you didn't give up when all seemed lost. Thank everything that you grew up enough to see who you were. Thank everything you didn't kill yourself when you had the chance. Thank everything you held on. You may have felt dead throughout it all. But you'll start to feel alive again.
Just. Hold. On

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