PEACE

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"Every storm comes to an end to give rise to the beautiful skies again."

I just made that up but knowing the internet someone has already said it xD
After a rough set of weeks I feel myself again. So hello lovely people. And excuse me for the previous internal monologue. Conflicted as I was I needed to get it out of my system. And make peace with myself. So I did. And I feel much better.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say (trying being the key word) is that when you feel depressed and you just don't want to talk about it , talk to yourself. As creepy as that sounds. Make peace with yourself. Because in the end , your only best friend is yourself. You'll see as time goes. So love yourself first and then become friends with yourself. Only then everything else in your life , all the conflicts and emotions , become stabilized. You become calmer ( not really). What I mean to say probably is you become you. You see exactly what is happening with you. You see the kind of people you have surrounded yourself with. Eradicate them. And straighten out everyone and everything disrupting your emotional side.
Back to me, once I got over the "low-phase" ,that's what I'm calling it, I did one of the most craziest things and crossed one thing off my bucket list. Wait for it. Wait for it. I got a tattoo! Yes. It was surprisingly not painful and one of the coolest decisions I've taken. Because well obviously I'm not very good at that. So anyway , I wanted my first one to be small and symbolic so I got the ";" on the side of my wrist.

So , for those of you who do not know, the semi colon tattoo represents , it is not a twitter trend or an internet phase. It is a silent fight. It is for everybody struggling with mental illnesses, depression, and other emotional issues.

A semicolon is used when an author could’ve chosen to end their sentence, but chose not to. The author is you and the sentence is your life.

So when i read about this a month or two ago , I knew right away that this is what I needed. It is perfect and symbolizes everything I have gone through and everything I believe in. And that folks, is how I made peace with myself. I wish I was famous enough to hear you stories. But I ain't. Haha. I'm hilarious. Not.
That's it for today lovelies.
Stay Strong. 
Much love.
Byee❤

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